Sunday, August 14, 2011
Social and ual frustration?!?!?! Please help!?
I'll start things out by saying I'm more socially frustrated than ually. I'm 19 years old, never had many friends or girlfriends growing up, and yes I'm obviously a virgin, and I feel like I'll remain one forever because of the society we live in and just how I am myself in general. I've been told I'm very attractive. But what really f*cks up my social skills is the fact that I have aspergers and high functioning autism. I also possibly worry too much. I'm kinda proud that I'm a virgin because of this, but I'd like to get laid at some point in my life.. And with all this talk about STDs and how you can even get them just from hugging/touching someone, it discourages me from wanting to go out and meet girls for relationships because I feel like every girl out there is just some nasty that's out to give me some sort of life threatening infection and ruin me for good :(. Plus I can't seem to get any of the good ones to want to go out with me, I seem to end up with all these prostitutes or desperate ugly girls.. Sometimes I feel like I should just commit suicide because I feel that there's no point in living because if I know I'm gonna die sooner or later of an STD why not die now? Based on what I also hear nowadays, kissing even seems dangerous, meaning STDs can be spread through kissing, which pretty much discourages me to want any relationships with anyone. And just to sum things up, I hate this feeling, so I feel that is dangerous, but I hear other people say it's fun and healthy. I just feel so jealous that everyone else is having fun with it and I'm scared to even talk to a girl nowadays because how STDs are talked about nowadays just makes me feel like every person has them and is out to get me. Can someone please help me overcome this fear and put courage back in my heart to know that a lot of people out there are good and disease free? I feel really scared to live life. I'm not joking around with how I feel so serious answers only please! Thanks!
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